Urge for Going

Although Joni wrote it, Tom Rush does such a wonderful job on this song. 

I awoke today and found the frost perched on the town 

It hovered in a frozen sky, then it gobbled summer down 

When the sun turns traitor cold And shivering trees are standing in a naked row 

I get the urge for going but I never seem to go - Joni Mitchell

  

My sister made me aware of Tom Rush. And so often when I listen to him I'm reminded of younger days. This is another Joni Mitchell song but I'm sure I heard his version first and it remains my preferred favorite of the two. 

And the seasons they go 'round and 'round And the painted ponies go up and down 

We're captive on the carousel of time 

We can't return we can only look behind From where we came 

And go round and round and round In the circle game - Joni Mitchell 

  

And since I'm on a Tom Rush kick tonight, even at the age of 56, 

the song below can bring a tear to my eye.  I remember when my Mom and I 

could no longer be in the same house and it was time to go. 

And as fate always works it's hand, it fell on me to be the one 

who cared for her the last years of her life . The one that got the calls.

The one that calmed her when her delirium overtook her.

"Each of us must do the things that matter
All of us must see what we can see
It was long ago, you must remember
You were once as young and scared as me

I don't know how hard it is yet Mamma

When you realize you're growing old

I know how hard is not to be younger

I know you've tried to keep me from the cold"

I know I'm melancholy tonight as I think of the heartbreak in a small Northern town. 

My heart aches for those innocent ones. 

My heart breaks for a young man who was so torn in his life, he shot children.  

Tomorrow the debates and finger pointing will begin in earnest as

we search for answers and solutions.

I know I don't have them.

But I do know this, love always wins.

Eventually.